To Be Continued

I started telling friends that I'm working on my birthday, first reaction from Dhill was, 'Can you please go get a off for your birthday, I'm serious'

Next was Hari, 'Why are you even working on your birthday'

(His eyes was damn big when I said it's 21st)

Then came Mika, 'Are you crazy'

Well, I admit that I love surprises, I admit that I'm really looking forward to what my friends will do for me, as I'm not the kind of person who will plan something for myself, and I get really touch by their effort to make me the happiest girl on Earth.

I know 21st may sound like big woohaaa to most people but to me, it just seems like the day is coming to tell me how much I'm not progressing in life, no successful career, no money, not progressing much in my studies, no ideal relationship, not moving forward to the goals in life, etc.

And, I still got to depend on my parents for a living, whenever I think about it, I just can't help but to feel how useless I am.

Probably the uselessness in me makes me not look forward to my birthday,

it's not like I don't care, I do, it's just that I'm not looking forward . . . . .

I really do care, I care about the wishes that I'm going to receive =D

And the reason I chose to work is because it's a Monday, most of my friends are working adult and the saying Monday Blues so yah